I (Kevin) have been learning lately that we are not entitled to be missionaries, but that this call is a gift. Sure it is in line with what we want, and God has blessed us by giving us an opportunity to serve him in this capacity. Sure we've worked hard to get here, and have more work to go before we actually make it to the field, but all that work happens because we were gifted the opportunities to work.
Sometimes I'm impatient, and want to be in Spain NOW, but remembering that I'm not entitled to being in Spain, but that it is a gift allows me to step back, release the anxiety and impatience and continue working all the more in great confidence.
Monday, August 2, 2010
As I sit in bed and listen to my sweet baby's breathing as she sleeps I long to sweep her into my arms and hold her and never let go. I feel overwhelmed with sadness and find myself fighting back irrational fears of what might happen to my family. Over the weekend missionary friends of ours lost their nearly two year old son as he died suddenly in his sleep. I feel numb and broken, unable to even begin to think of all the emotions that our friends must be facing right now. They had just come back to the States after a three year term in a very challenging country, weary and heavy laden, needing rest. Now this. Please join me in praying for their family.